1. |
The Half Of It
03:57
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I’m not sure if I’m mad at you anymore
Though I still remember what I was upset for
You told me to dry me eyes and pick up my pieces
But honestly I’m not quite sure where I left them
Stop looking at me like you’ve got me figured out
Stop trying to comfort me like you know what I’m crying about
Why can’t you understand that you don’t understand this
Honestly you don’t know the half of it
Darling
Singing sad songs at the top of my lungs
Crying in the car with the windows down
Gotta outwit, outrun, outlast you
We’re too prideful to say we’re sorry, and too angry to call a truce
Stop looking at me like you’ve got me figured out
I’ve got a couple tricks up my sleeves that you don’t know about
Why can’t you understand that you don’t understand this
Honestly you don’t know the half of it
Darling
Gotta outwit, outrun, outlast you
We’re too prideful to say we’re sorry, and too angry to call a truce
Gotta outwit, outrun, outlast you
You tell me to dry my eyes and regroup
Stop looking at me like you’ve got me figured out
Don’t tell me that I’m being dramatic when you don’t know what I’m overreacting about
Why can’t you understand that you don’t understand this
Honestly you don’t know the half of it
Darling
Gotta outwit, outrun, outlast you
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2. |
21st Century
03:41
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Recently I’ve started taking therapy
21st century, first one with technology
I try to love myself but I only do
When the internet says that it loves me too
Oh my gosh you generation
Please give me some validation
Tell me what’s trendy, tell me what’s not
Tell me what’s cool, and tell me who’s hot
Wait till it’s trending to talk about it
But make you sure you don’t talk politics
Boys will be boys, and boys will be jerks
Generation oh so insecure
Tell me what’s trendy
Tell me what’s the new ideal
Tell me who I’m supposed to be
Tell me how I’m supposed to feel
We just try to force serotonin
And drown it out with melatonin
Oh so mentally unstable
But watch your mouth or get #cancelled
Oh my gosh you generation
Please give me some validation
Tell me what’s trendy, tell me what’s not
Tell me what’s cool, and tell me who’s hot
Wait till it’s trending to talk about it
Little orange bottles with little green tablets
Boys will be boys, and boys will be jerks
Generation oh so insecure
Generation did something good, well make sure they know it
Accomplish, flaunt it, and make sure that you post it
Tell me what’s the standard, someone give an answer
If you’re gonna judge it, won’t you tell me what it is first
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3. |
Here's to Hoping
03:59
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It felt like old times last time we were talking
‘Bout birthdays and bands, and classes and comics
But I can’t help but wonder if we
Were talking cause the girls you liked better were busy
Maybe that’s just me
Being paranoid easily
And I’m getting this strange sense of deja vu
Cause I know your type, yeah I’ve met girls like you
And I’m watching it play out as if it were a movie
But maybe you’ll stay
Well at least here’s to hoping
And I bet that your new friends know how to talk to boys
I know when we’re around them I’m your second choice
And no, I’m not exactly happy with it
But I’m just struggling to stay on the list
And I noticed you don’t wear your glasses anymore
You don’t call me on the weekends like you did before
And I still don’t hate you, cause I care way too much
But I can hear in the silence what’s about to come
And I know that I’ll cry by the time that we’re through
Yeah, I know that I’m gonna write hate songs about you
But now I’m just trying to force serotonin
So maybe you’ll stay
Well at least here’s to hoping
But maybe if I started putting on makeup,
Maybe one day if my face starts to clear up
Maybe then you could find some time to talk
Maybe then you would sit with me at lunch
So I did everything I put on a cute outfit
I showed up to school, hopelessly hoping
I waved at you, you didn’t wave back at me
So I’m telling myself that you just didn’t see
And I can’t look back and tell myself
That I should’ve known about you
Cause I already knew
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4. |
Clouds
03:32
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You say you still don’t know
Exactly who you are
Well I hope you know
That I’ll love whoever you become
Cause I love you
Even when you don’t do
And I’ll be there
To help clean up after the party
To lend a hand
When you’ve tripped up and hit the ground
And if you’re too tired to stand
We can just sit in the grass
And watch the clouds move
You ask me how the kids at school
Could ever be so cruel
I say it ain’t your job to help them understand you
When it’s their fault if they don’t try to
And I love you
Even when you don’t do
And I’ll join you
When your favorite song’s on and you’re the only one dancing
To lend a hand
When no one else is listening
To you
And I’ll help with every mountain
That you want to move
If you could see yourself through my eyes
You’d hold your head up higher
So I’ll be there when you’re crying
Alligator tears in the bathroom
If you’re too tired to stand
Then we can sit in the grass
And watch the clouds move
And when the sun starts going down
And all the clouds are far from view
I’ll look up at the stars with you
Cause I love you
Even when you don’t do
Yeah I love you
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5. |
City Of A Million
02:23
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Red eyes, red lights
Cry about it later
Best day of your life
But you’ll regret it when its over
Promise on a park bench, crying in apartments
Dear
City lights, polaroids
They come back in waves
We’ll get our act together
But give us a couple days
Trying to find the silver lining in the so called golden years
Teenage runaway sneakers and a love letter
Bright lights, fast cars, babe do you remember
Just two criminals trying to steal a moment
But it’s better getting caught together aint it
Long walk, good talk you say sarcastically
Silence on the subway still say something you don’t mean
Stay another week but only if you dare me too
And oh my god who is she that girl you mentioned once
And you don’t care about me until somebody else does
City of a million but strangely I come back to you
Teenage runaway, fingers crossed you’ll stay
But fingers crossed behind your back always just in case
Two criminals trying to steal a moment
But its better getting caught together aint it
Oh my god go back your bags
Cant believe you’d have the nerve to mention that
City of a million but strangely every billboard looks like you
And every time you’re walking through the crowded streets
Remember that you ruined this city for me
Two teenage runaways who ran to each other way too soon
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6. |
Sorry Excuse
03:53
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In every single parking lot
I think I see the silhouette of you
In every grocery line I hear your
Pre-planned pick-up lines
And I see your face in takeout menus
I know I shouldn’t miss you
But I still see your smile in the traffic lights
And sometimes I get nervous that you’ll visit
And I won’t have the strength to leave you twice
Told you that I hated you while crying in the floor
When things were going south then I drove up to the north
Don’t hate me, I just had to go
But in every single advertisement I still see your face
Wanted to call you cause I wanted to say
I’m sorry but that’s a sorry excuse I know
Sometimes when I’m walking
In the city window shopping
I see the gleam of your eye in the showroom
I even started talking with other guys
But every single time I try
I find myself comparing them to you
Remember New Years Eve, the alcohol on your breath
Started yelling at me in front of all of my friends
Excuse you, I made excuses for you
Now that I’m in New York sometimes when it’s getting dark
I sit out in the cold and pretend I’m in your arms
Unfortunately, I love you I do
In every car I see, every plastic thank you bag
Every grocery store receipt, every song stuck in my head
It’s you, I see you
Every cloud that’s in the sky, every outfit that I choose
Every feeling in my stomach, every person in the room
How could I forget you when everything looks like you
Everything, everything, everything looks like you
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7. |
Teenage Rebel
04:08
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Had to go through my emo phase on my own
Cause the girls at school would make fun of my clothes
Don’t know why anyone would wanna be 16 again
Was gonna dye my hair but was afraid of the side effects
Stay out past curfew but I’ve got a test tomorrow
Yeah I don’t have time to be a teenage rebel
And I’m trying to live in the moment
But oh I just keep overthinking
Every little thing I’ve said, you only live once how ‘bout that
And I’m trying to live in the moment
But oh I keep looking ahead
Worried ‘bout the future, worried ‘bout everything, worried ‘bout what happens next
I’m insecure, I’m insecure
Self conscious and I don’t know what for
I’m the outcast on the outskirts of the dance floor
Was gonna go out partying but had too much homework
Fought with my parents but felt sorry after
Self conscious and insecure
I’m not a teenage rebel just a teenager
Surrounded by teenage beauty queens
Taught to idolize girls in magazines
What could I be worried about at this age
Well honestly a lot it seems
And I’m too scared to be angsty and rude
Cause I’m too worried ‘bout the way that I’m viewed
This stressed out and I’m only 15
And Katy Perry lied about this teenage dream
I’m insecure, I’m insecure
Self conscious and I don’t know what for
I’m the outcast on the outskirts of the dance floor
Don’t got time to be a rebel teen
When I’m constantly worried ‘bout the way I’m perceived
Self conscious and insecure
I’m not a teenage rebel just a teenager
So here’s my angsty teenage throwback song
With a 90’s sort of tune
I’d throw my hands in the air like I just don’t care
But then again I kinda do
Surrounded by teenage beauty queens
Taught to idolize girls in magazines
To be fair a lot had changed since the 80’s
And honestly I’m thinking ‘bout turning to astrology
Oh what if they like me, what if I mess up
Trying not to act too snarky but still keep my head up
Oh what if they like me, what if I mess up
Trying not to act too snarky but still keep my head up
Society, hierarchy, and high school popularity
Canceled on the party cause I had to go to therapy
Tell me what’s up with this generation’s ideology
But like the boomers say let’s all just blame it on technology
The reason I’m so angsty’s probably cause I’ve got anxiety
And this ain’t adding up like they taught me in trigonometry
And at this point calming down’s not a legit possibility
And who had time to be a rebel teen now honestly
credits
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8. |
Grace
04:08
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I remember when we were mesmerized
By the fact that my older sister could drive
And we watched in awe as she drove away
We said when we’re older everything will make sense
And those girls that we once thought were our friends
We’ll understand why they did what they did one day
Ooh, but I don’t think about them half as much
As I used to
Cause now all I think about is you
Grace, ever since I got on that plane
It’s been your face on my mind
And if I could find the words I would,
Riding our bikes round the neighborhood
Guess growing up happens when you least want it too
Then we got our licenses
And we drove to each other’s houses
Before long we were packing up the car,
Boxes and books lining the floors
And we laughed and cried on the way to the airport
Ooh, I promise that I’ll call you
And I’ll see you in the fall
Grace, ever since I got on that plane
It’s been your face on my mind
And if I could find the words I would,
Riding our bikes round the neighborhood
Guess growing up happens when you least want it too
Looking out the window
See that small town in the rear view
And looking at it now, I think I’ve realized
Growing up happens when you least expect it too
And if I could find the words I would,
Riding our bikes round the neighborhood
Guess growing up happens when you least want it too
And looking at it now I can conclude
No matter the numbers on a page,
No matter the lines tracing your face
Growing up happens when you least expect it to
Somehow
I feel older now
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9. |
West Virginia
03:32
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It looks like you’re somewhere out in West Virginia
In the old videos that we found
And you’re laughing and you’re singing
As you roll over the Allegheny Hills
And I hadn’t heard that voice before
But I’ve heard of it
And there’s a book beside my bed that I liked
Apparently it was your favorite
And I heard you liked to play the guitar
And I heard you liked to sing
And you’re looking out the window, the camera is shaky
Cause you didn’t know that we would be looking at these
There’s a picture of you in my parents’ room
And things about myself I wonder if I got from you
And people all over this town that you knew
And they all say how kind and how good you were to them
And I heard you liked to play the guitar like I do
And I heard you liked to sing like me
And you’re looking out the window, the camera is shaky
Cause you didn’t know that we would be looking at these
The videos are all from what looks like the 90s
I can make out your face though the camera is shaky
You smiled so wide at my mother’s graduation
And she now has the diamond you gave my grandma in a necklace
I never met you but I feels like I know you
And it looks like you’re somewhere out in West Virginia
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10. |
Time Heals
02:37
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Its funny how I used to cry about you
And now I don’t feel anything at all
Crazy how you used to seem so high and mighty
And now you seem so small
Guess we’re getting older
Guess I’m getting smarter
Or maybe I’m just gettin tougher skin
Maybe the cliche is true
Mending all of these old wounds
Cause I’ve come to understand
That time can heal some things
I walked by your house the other day
Expecting myself to cry
But I couldn’t recall what we even fought about
And I when I touched my face, my cheeks were dry
Guess we’re getting older
Guess we start to learn
Who’s really on our side
Maybe one day we will look back and laugh
But we haven’t gotten to that yet
But at least I’ve come to believe
That time can heal some things
And no, I don’t cry myself to sleep
No, not like I used to
I think that we learn from our mistakes
And I know I learned from you
Guess we’re getting older
Guess we start to learn
Who compliments our strengths and all our flaws
Maybe one day we will look back and laugh
But we haven’t gotten to that yet
But at least I’ve come to understand
That time can heal some things
So maybe the cliche is actually true
Cause I know, time helped with you
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Ann Gray Norfolk, Virginia
A captivating indie-pop artist weaving introspective tales with infectious melodies. Her evocative vocals and honest lyrics resonate deeply, capturing the essence of life's joys and struggles. Immerse yourself in her enchanting soundscapes that blend vulnerability and strength, inviting listeners on a journey of self-discovery. ... more
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